He Holds It All Together
For the last two and a half weeks, my daughter has been eagerly awaiting the start of her Kindergarten year.
**Let me be honest, I have been just as excited as her, knowing that I was about to have a lot more time to work on the things that felt extra pressing - particularly, tying up plenty loose ends for The Gathering.
The night before had arrived!! Her backpack was packed, the semi-healthy lunch was prepped, and the dress that she meticulously picked out for this very day was hanging proudly on the closet door.
Not what I expected…
With a kiss goodnight, I closed her door and headed to bed, only to wake up a few hours later to the sound of her cry growing louder and louder as she neared my room.
Her feverish body climbed into bed next to me, and my mind fell into disappointment at unmet expectations.
No. Why does this always happen? I thought sourly. Right when I’m about to hit it hard and gain the momentum that I need.
The night was long with little sleep. With the morning hours came new mercies… that I refused to see.
The boys were off to school, and she and I settled in on the couch. Thinking I could sit next to her and work, I grabbed my computer and phone.
“Momma, I don’t want you to work. Just sit with me.”
So I sat. Part of me feeling overwhelmed (and a touch frustrated), while also trying to trust that God already knew the details of my day.
The Deeper Need
After she dozed asleep in my arms, I reached for my phone to pull up my to-do list. After all, I was determined.
But God met me right there in that moment.
My “To Do” note that I had started last week stared at me blankly with only a singe verse on it that I had typed out.
“He is before all things, and by him all things hold together.” Colossians 1:17
Apparently, and by God’s kindness, I got sidetracked that day and didn’t write down a single item on that list.
Yes, God knew what I thought were my pressing needs, but like a good, all-knowing Father, He knew what I really needed - to know that He holds it together and that it’s not on me to figure everything out.
Without the struggle, I wouldn’t have known there was a deeper need.
He Holds It All Together
The common message of our culture is that it is all on you to figure it out, get it all done, and hold it all together.
But it’s a lie, and it grips our hearts and strangles the joy right out of life.
Let my accidental note be your reminder that before time even existed, Christ was there, and He is still there, holding even the tiniest details of your day.
His mercy and strength is waiting for you today, and He is worthy of your trust.
God, help us to release the anxieties
that we are holding onto so tightly,
knowing that you are the One
who holds it all together
and You are worthy of our trust.
Amen
